There is something I am wanting to say but not sure I have the words to do so but I will give it my best shot. Yes this will be long winded so be ready.
I know I might have mentioned this before but just in case, The reason we had got Rocco was for my wife. As I know I had said before she never had her had dog of her own in her life but also we got him after we found out that my wife could not have any more children. After our son my wife almost died from health issues. She was told she was a high risk pregnancy and could never have another. That really messes a woman up mentally. Rocco for her, I know this might seem very strange to some, was to fill that spot of a second child and it worked. Rocco for her was her second child. She spoiled that dog as if he was human. She was over protective just like a mother. Hell she even gave him my side of the damn bed. The crazy bassard thought my pillow was his. You know the piping on the edge of the mattress? That is what I have slept on for the past 5 years. A queen size bed and for the past two days I still catch my self scooting over to the edge as far as I can get without falling my fat ass out of the bed.
At 1 am she woke up crying again. She is not dealing well at all, She is very much noticing he is not here especially when she wakes up because of the routine from the past 5 years. In her mind in that messed up way one of her kids is gone. When she came into the office she had regained her composure until she went to hug me goodbye to leave for work and she lost it again. I just stood up and offered my chair and told her I think you need to read something. I pulled up this page so she could read all the comments and I left her with it while I went to the garage to just pass a few minutes.
When I came back she had calmed down and was reading the last few comments. When she finished she turned to me and did something I was not expecting in a million years. She smiled....
This threw me for one hell of a loop. I have not seen her smile since we found out Roccos time was limited which has been for a few weeks. After she left for work it dawned on me why. So with that said I must say this.
Both her and I have family but they are half way across the US. It is rare that we get to speak with them due to time difference and life styles. Our friends where we live have moved away a long time ago. Our son and his girlfriend are young so as per the typical a lack of compassion and understanding.
I had noticed that any time in my life I had family and friends that was able to relate and thus make me feel as if I am not alone in the current situation. I think that even though we both are going through this together she was still feeling alone until she seen what you all have posted.
With that being the case I want to say Thank you all so very very much. You all have done something that I could not do for myself or for my wife. You made a strong heartbroken woman smile in her time of need. You have filled that gap that typically only family and close friends could. She now does not feel alone for the time being in her situation. You all have brought back my wife's smile and for me no amount of money in the world could buy such satisfaction in my life.
Sincerely
Chris Q (AKA Ewok)
