frankj1 wrote:another in a series of seemingly endless challenging days ended early enough for me to make a nice whole chikens to go with The Lovely Caren's magical chikens soup and some other stuff.
we are still living with the burden of sadness, that may never change, and being isolated from our remaining immediate family adds to it, yet sometimes there is light even in the darkest of times...we are compelled to keep searching for it. At least I am. Wandering in the desert wilderness for 40 years had to be nearly as difficult, and I am here because of those survivors.
So we participated in a zoom seder with our closest friends and their extended family with whom we are also close...hell it's almost more of our real family after all these years.
And a bonus...when I spoke with my mother she was 100% aware of the seder, even told me it was only the first of two nights!.
But we really missed having granddaughter Evy (as in chevy) snooping around our house looking for the Afikoman.
Google it ya goyishe kopfs.
Not fair making us do more homework on a school night Papa...
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I am sorry for your pain Frank.
I too have dealt with some devastating family experiences as well.
All I can say is those who love you for who you are and are willing to have your back through anything - that is your true family. And it is my belief that you will find many of them here...
I hope that while you may experience continued sadness, you may also experience the joys of all of the positive aspects of life. You are a good man. You do not deserve to suffer...