Hello to those that remember me , and a thought to ponder on for those that don't.
First things first.......
I was trading awhile back with some of the greatest people i have never had the fortune of meeting ! but it didn't matter , we got to be aquainted through trading which made it all the better ! i can't list you all (some have changed thier handles ), so if you have traded with me in the past, or helped a Brother out......this is to you ! AND TO A SPECIAL "SISTER"
THANK YOU ! for being totally and honestly the best group of people i've run across !
but it was with great sadness that i withdrew into my own little world full of problems.
you see , i have had cancer for awhile ......( NO "OH NO'S" !) i've been through treatment and am feeling better now . but i did just leave without saying anything and for that i am truely sorry !!
a few knew......some were informed by others....which was alright with me. it's just during the treatments and the "sick" time i felt no where near "up to chatting" and i hope all can understand.
you were there when i had a fire in my building which housed my apartment and helped me through a very hard time ( at which time "i knew" i had cancer at that point but chose to deny it ) but after the fire i started getting worse little by little untill i just felt like quitting ! but my wife and parents sort-of pushed me into going through the radiation therapy ( which really sucked !! ) but i've been pushing to hit 40 and it's at the end of july.......i'm making it !!!!
you have to live like there's no tomorrow ! i found that out awhile back , but you can't forget the ones that have helped you out "oh so greatly" along the way either !
a few have kept writing me even though most of the time i didn't "write right back" and i feel bad about that, but that's what cancer does to some i was told....it makes them hide in thier shell and they don't feel like coming out ! that was me for a good while !
but i'm out of my shell , torn down the walls and hope to be up to getting back to doing some more trading again in the near future. i've cut "WAY BACK" on smoking though........about a cigar once every two-to-three day's. but my dad get's my "overflow" ( i owe him more than i could ever repay ) so i treat him !!
i had one greycliff sitting in my humidor for about 4 months and i've been wanting to smoke it so bad but on fathersday i gifted it to my father ...... nothings too good for my dad , and i'd like to give him the best i have since he gave me the best he had....."his love" "his support" and even when we disagreed "his forgiveness"
Dad just had triple bypass on friday , sunday he was sitting up on the edge of the bed and today he was up and walking around the hall ( great for him ! )he'll be smoking that greycliff soon.......... he was there for me and i'm there for him ! as were alot of you great traders i got to know from being online in the trades section.
This is a letter to just say.......Thank you ! you know who you are !!! i'd like to be listing this in the trades section but it's not a trade i want just yet......but i'm getting there........soon.....very soon !
i just felt like saying thank you to you all this way and to give a reason on why i just up-and-quit writing and trading. i had just gotten in a couple of birthday clubs but felt it would be best for all if i recended my membership so some wouldn't get stiffed if i had a bad week (good call on my part ) i had lousy months !! so i made room for a more reliable birthday person because i had no idea of my outcome...... before i could ....be anyone i wanted......even someone "without" cancer , even though i had it i didn't want any sympathy or " oh , i'm so sorry " .....although they are all honestly heartfelt and appreciated i liked being without......just a good guy ! a decent trader ! and part of something other than what i had ! so this is all i will say about this and i'll just go back to being who i was....which is all i wanted all along, to be who i "was" . but unfortunatly **** happens that is out of our control and we have to deal with it the best we can and i found hiding behind a healthy contendertotes was better than being the contendertotes with cancer.......know what i mean ?

OH B.O.T.L. ...........AGAIN.....

THANK YOU !
Chat with ya soon !!!
contendertotes at yahoo

GLAD TO HAVE YOU BACK!!!!!!!
Your not writing back had Liz and I worried! We're glad to see you on the boards again, and hope you wont be a stranger no more!

Thank's CW
I'm still ....in-and-out......but picking up steam again little by little !
well , i'll let this thread run and check back in a few day's !
Thank's to all !
G-night

...............and Liz !!!!!
i should've wrote back more often....sooner !!!
thank you especially ! for keeping on writing me !
G-nite

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Welcome back Tim!! I'm so glad to see you perusing the boards. I've been thinking about you much, man.
It's definately nice to hear from you!

Paul

C-NOTE,

Glad to hear from you.

Nice to meet you, contendertotes!

Yours,
Sheila

welcome back bud, if you get a chance can you post some pictures of your son's project(s)

tony

Welcome Home:-) You've been missed.

Welcome Back Tim!!!!

Welcome Back Tim,
My prayers are with you and your family. Good to see you posting again.
Later
Dave (A.K.A. Homebrew)

Tim...glad to hear you are doing better. Looking forward to some trades and stuff soon. Keep up the good fight!

Dave

welcome back and nice to meet you 🙂

see you around!

BIG BIG HUGS TIM!!!!!!! glad to see you on the boards again and I owe you an email! Running things with Clive gone gets hectic LOL I'll write back tonight or tomorrow I promise! And write when you can! Hang in there bro! We are all here for you! Keep hope and faith alive!

welcome back!

welcome back, tim!

bro, chronic illness WILL change many, many things in your life. and it can change the person, too, in many ways. but the core of who you "were" will ALWAYS be there. take care of yourself, buddy, in ALL ways, on ALL levels.

as you continue to go through this and figure it all out and make sense of it, just know that a lot of people are wishing you well and always, always ready to see you here whenever you can be. god bless.

Best of wishes to you Tim! Welcome back.

Charlie

contendertotes
glad to see ya back again.
hang in there buddy.
now get your but over to the trade board.LOL.


hdking

Welcome back!

Castlewa

HELLO , HELLO , HELLO !!!!
Feeling better and better each day ! i wasn't "supposed to" be doing this good ( if i had belived the doctors i probably wouldn't be ) but chemo-therapy and medicine......and determination has turned into remission ( i don't care if that's spelled right or not! ). thank's to ya-all for keeping me in your prayers and wanting me back !! it really has helped. i had to "relocate" due to medical bills eating into my rent money cause while i was sick i wasn't bringing anything "in" and it was just my wife working and trying to keep up on the bills (losing battle there ) ! but my parents have a huge barn-type building that they had a room type apartment built upstairs for me ( fearing the worst case senario ). but now it's come in handy at the most perfect time. i'm feeling better (still out-of-work but looking )and my father just recently had bypass surgury and won't be able to do alot till he heals more.....so i'm earning my keep, getting good excersise and helping him while he's helping me !!
I just had my big 40th Birthday party !!! a frien of the family has a big party barge pontoon boat we spent the day out on the lake in fantastic weather ! and now i'm a vegatable on his computer for a bit ! i'm hoping to either have a phone line run up in the barn or to have a job and be back out in my own place soon. it just sometimes feels like i should have been the one who created "MURPHY'S LAW " since just when it starts going in the right direction for me........... "IT" happens. but i guess we all feel that way alot of the time Huh? i gotta hit the sack but i "WILL" be back on here tomorrow sometime since i'm here till tomorrow evening. OH BOY !!! comuter access two day's in a row !!! i've been craving day's like this again !!
i had alot of thank you's to write from emails i had recieved or else i would have been here all night.
Man i'm tired !! looooonng day !! but a good one !!!
Happy birthday to all and i'll see ya tomorrow !!!
PROMISE !!!
Tim
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