having an ongoing history of depression (though medication does a good job of stabilizing me) I think/have thought about death a lot.
when i think about death, it is mostly couched in my philosophy about life and what makes life "sacred" to use a popular term.
I am not a proponent of life being "sacred" just because there are biologically defined signs of life. I think life has meaning and sacredness only to the extent that there is a quality to it.
that being said, I am the only judge for myself as to what that quality is. I do become audacious enough to pass judgment on the quality and "sacredness" of others' lives when it comes to that person's crimes or burdens on society...i.e. death penalty issues.
however, I don't think that EVERYONE who is a burden on society is disqualified from "sacredness" of life. though I would support something such as abortion if you know your child were going to live with a grave mental or physical deformity.....I WOULD NOT suggest that such a choice is right for all. Many such children are loved and cared for by parents and others and contribute to the lives of those around them just by existing.
However, for myself, I can imagine life being to the point that it is not worth it....for myself. Though I think I have been close to that a couple times, I obviously never got all the way to that point. And I reserve the right to view my life that way no matter what the law or moral code says.
But as described above, I would walk softly regarding judgment of others' lives regarding "sacredness."
Didn't mean to turn this into an abortion/euthanasia/suicide debate.....just the issues that come up with my thinking of death.
And no...I am not afraid of death, even though I'm not sure how God will judge me. I do believe that If I am judged harshly, countless others will be judged likewise and be very surprised.
But I have weighed those risks and willingly take them.