I don't think I'll ever understand the booze addiction, not truly, but I feel like I can kinda relate a bit better now.

bgz wrote:

I would drink to Jade's success, but I'm currently on the wagon from booze and smoke. So maybe this coming Saturday a drink and a smoke will be in order (doctor's orders say then or later).

tonygraz wrote:

Congrats, 19 yrs is amazing.

I can totally relate and it's not an easy thing to do. Some of my best friends, who I consider an extended family, are addicts and alcoholics in recovery. Like you, the program is where I met these people. Without them and the help that they've given me I don't know where I'd be... but I'm 100% sure it would not be a good place.

Someday... one day at a time, I hope to have 19 yrs.

BuckyB93 wrote:

Do I think about drinking? Yes, it pops in my mind but it goes away. I would love to have a nice porter, stout, or IPA, just one... but I can't. The price to pay would be too much for me to afford at all levels.

Some people may not understand but I don't have an OFF switch when it comes to booze. A alcoholic or addict can understand and relate. It's weird... it's hard to explain.

BuckyB93 wrote:

On October 10th 2002, I drank my last bourbon and completely blew up up my life. Not gonna get into all that, other than to say that I TECHNICALLY didn't hurt anyone but myself and no, it was not a suicide attempt. I'm too arrogant and self-centered for that. I've never had another drink. I'm also not looking for accolades. I was a pathetic drunk and I made the choice to be a man and a Father. Something normal people do every single day.

My only reason for posting this is to say that if you have a problem with booze or something else, make a decision and do whatever the hell you gotta do to get straight or or sober. I went to AA and worked with a lot of really good people that helped me and checked me and kept me in line. These were NOT new-agey bull$hit people. They were tough old drunks that had gotten sober and dished out tough love to help others. This isn't an AA commercial. Those PEOPLE helped me. The program was just where I met them. I loved to drink, loved to be drunk, and am basically lazy. Getting sober sucked for about 2 years and was easily the hardest thing I've ever done. Here's the thing....IF I CAN DO IT...YOU CAN DO IT. It made my life infinitely better. My first marriage didn't survive my drunkeness but my 2nd one is great. My daughters have a Father they love and that loves and supports them. I wouldn't still be alive if I had kept on. If any of this sounds like you, do something about it. It starts with a decision. Not a "I'll try this for a bit" thought but a f*cking decision that I AM going to do this. and then do it.

JadeRose wrote:

Not drinking, for me, is an easier and better way of life.

BuckyB93 wrote:

I have never understood why people put fingers in their bourbon. That would make me quit. So unsanitary.

HockeyDad wrote:

Like you better at sober and pathetic.

Good on ya.

8trackdisco wrote:

This is exactly what I tell newcomers. A lot of people go on about how bad their lives were or they get all spiritual and talk about God. I simply tell people that I loved to drink but it completely f*cked up my life. I'm a lazy person that likes pleasure and quitting was hard. IF MY LIFE WASN"T INFINITELY BETTER I WOULD HAVE STAYED DRUNK. Drunk was easy. Sober was a bitch until it wasn't anymore. Now, I can't imagine living like that again. Actually, I can but just choose not to because I remember it as it actually was. Not through hazy vision.

JadeRose wrote: