Really? Gosh. I didn't know you cared.
DrMaddVibe wrote:
not sure exactly why, but I do. Just my nature, I guess.
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We all know to survive here requires a dependable coat. We are mostly guys, guys tend to use low brow humor to crack on each other. Wise azz comments about others' masculinity, though not PC, will always be a staple among guys when in private groups. No reason not to expect it from time to time here and 98.2% of the time the target du jour laughs it off as it is said in jest.
There's just a different quality to your attacks that truly have me worried FOR you. The level of bile and hatred and rage over trivial things, the crazed responses to other free people when they have their own opinions that differ from yours, the intolerance...it's just way beyond anyone else here. Yet in my gut I do not feel hatred toward you.
I suspect I am not alone on this, but what I pick up is that whatever is causing such unhappiness in you is increasingly getting tougher to contain. Rage is the flip side of sadness/depression and it feels like it has gone from oozing out of you to becoming in danger of crashing over the dam. Where this place provides a quasi-therapeutic setting for anonymous release of pressure, your posts are increasingly sounding like someone in trouble, not sure how to get help, lashing out at others as though you'd like them to know what your suffering feels like.
It doesn't work, does it? And it makes me wonder what causes you so much more pain than the average jerks that land here.
Better to open up and let your anonymous friends get a look at the issues that must be really difficult for you, instead of pushing them away. You'd be amazed at the support (and some friendly barbs) you'll get from these B/SOTLs. I recently received a tremendous amount of great help, insight, and suggestions about a highly personal and painful situation realting to my son. You may recall that thread. Many PM'd me with phenomenal advice, others told me to PM them for even more help, and almost everyone took a humorous shot at me, or assumed I was the addicted person.
I have to tell you, it helped. I don't just mean my spirits, I mean factually. Things can change in a heartbeat, but my family put some ideas from here into play and there has been measurable improvement.
I fully expect a flip answer from you, no problem for me, but just know I have not typed one word here to hurt you, quite the contrary. I love all humanity, I wish all pain would vanish, but I know better.
So, I have enough stuff to deal with in my real life that you just can't make a dent with your diatribes over trivial points I make here.
Good luck brother.
Threadjack off...sorry, just couldn't hold back any longer.
Frank